I never got to finish tellin yall about all the things that happened on my trip to the beach...and lets leave it at that..overall it was a good trip and we made it back in one piece. but since ive been back my spring break has just consisted of working and chillin with my friends...cant remember anything stickin out as special but we have had some fun times lol.
Thursday was my homegirl bday so we got BLOWED! so out of it that we couldnt even talk to each other lol...just sittin in silence..to a point where we ended up callin it a night at around 1030....the night had barely started and we were through! but we enjoyed the day overall.
But since we didnt get to do everything she wanted to do for her bday we plan on just continuing it all weekend and makin sure its one to remember for her!
Inspiration
Saturday, April 10, 2010
Saturday, April 3, 2010
Beach Getaway
Its officially my last SPRING BREAK in high school..so im at the beach with some friends and family..and so far right now im having a good time..we havent done much yet cuz we just got here but i can already tell it will be an eventful trip..
Last night (our first night here) we all wanted to go out but we have so many people that we couldnt all fit in one car so we decided to hang out in the parking deck until we felt like walking the strip..well that was sort of short lived because then security came and told us we had to leave because there was no "hanging out" in the parking deck..lol overall it was a funny situation because the guy was really upset it seemed like..
And that was only night 1 we have 3 more days left and i can tell its gonna be a lil hectic..but i promise to keep you tuned on my beach getaway!
Last night (our first night here) we all wanted to go out but we have so many people that we couldnt all fit in one car so we decided to hang out in the parking deck until we felt like walking the strip..well that was sort of short lived because then security came and told us we had to leave because there was no "hanging out" in the parking deck..lol overall it was a funny situation because the guy was really upset it seemed like..
And that was only night 1 we have 3 more days left and i can tell its gonna be a lil hectic..but i promise to keep you tuned on my beach getaway!
Tuesday, March 23, 2010
Why am I Afraid?
This guy that im really feeling recently told me he keeps his heart out for love to find it..and if u know me u know thats completely opposite of me..i keep my heart guarded and locked away because i dont wanna get hurt....i never wanna give a person a chance to even try to break it.
Like most girls I've had boyfriends in the past where i truly loved them and really couldnt picture being without them..but as u can see im doing fine without them *hence the fact that im single* but i can also say that they never had my heart...they never had me wanting to willingly be around them all the time...they were never always on my mind..they never gave me butterflies every time i was with them...and yet i stayed with them until i just couldnt hide it anymore...
So needless to say im tired of that pattern...i honestly feel that the next guy i go with seriously is going to be somebody worthy enough to get my heart and im going to trust them enough to not play with it or break it...i really hope it works!
Like most girls I've had boyfriends in the past where i truly loved them and really couldnt picture being without them..but as u can see im doing fine without them *hence the fact that im single* but i can also say that they never had my heart...they never had me wanting to willingly be around them all the time...they were never always on my mind..they never gave me butterflies every time i was with them...and yet i stayed with them until i just couldnt hide it anymore...
So needless to say im tired of that pattern...i honestly feel that the next guy i go with seriously is going to be somebody worthy enough to get my heart and im going to trust them enough to not play with it or break it...i really hope it works!
Monday, March 22, 2010
Tell me how u really feel
So if u know me u know what's been going on recently in my life and Ive talked about it with certain people but something still isn't sitting right with me so i figured id blog about it to vent all my feelings and frustrations...
LIFE is HARD! i cant recall a time that Ive cried so much over things i cant control before...i was recently told by 2 of my closest friends (they know who they are) that i wasn't being a good friend to them....i swear out of my whole 18 years of life i don't think Ive ever been that hurt..so many ppl kept telling me to let it go its their lost and all these encouraging things to help me figure out the thoughts in my head...
but it hasn't worked...i mean these 2 ppl have affected my life in a way i believe nobody else can..i did things for them that i wouldn't and didn't do for my own family...and i believe they know this...so many guys Ive lost because my friends always came first and so many lies i told just to spend time with them..
so I'm wondering what in the world did i do that would classify me as not being a good friend even after all of that stuff...and u know i still don't know..and i cant say that I'm trying to find out anymore...i learned that ppl usually hold how they feel in until something happens and they get mad then that's when all the truth about how they really feel comes out..
so where I'm at now is like i guess they told me how they really felt and I'm sorry things even had to come to that for them to get that across but as of right now i can no longer put myself in a place where i allow myself to be stressed out over being something that i know i am already
LIFE is HARD! i cant recall a time that Ive cried so much over things i cant control before...i was recently told by 2 of my closest friends (they know who they are) that i wasn't being a good friend to them....i swear out of my whole 18 years of life i don't think Ive ever been that hurt..so many ppl kept telling me to let it go its their lost and all these encouraging things to help me figure out the thoughts in my head...
but it hasn't worked...i mean these 2 ppl have affected my life in a way i believe nobody else can..i did things for them that i wouldn't and didn't do for my own family...and i believe they know this...so many guys Ive lost because my friends always came first and so many lies i told just to spend time with them..
so I'm wondering what in the world did i do that would classify me as not being a good friend even after all of that stuff...and u know i still don't know..and i cant say that I'm trying to find out anymore...i learned that ppl usually hold how they feel in until something happens and they get mad then that's when all the truth about how they really feel comes out..
so where I'm at now is like i guess they told me how they really felt and I'm sorry things even had to come to that for them to get that across but as of right now i can no longer put myself in a place where i allow myself to be stressed out over being something that i know i am already
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