.:::There's no Need to Argue, Parents just dont Understand:::.

For the most part, me and my mama have an okay relationship...she wants to know everything that it going on with me, just like any parent would but I refuse to let her in..

This is because she is soo mean and people tell me its because she cares and she just wants whats best for me..but i dnt believe it...

I really think she wants to live her life through me...she wants me to be the A student she was in high school and get involved in things she was involved in..but thats not me...we are total opposite when it comes to high school life...im in more of the social part of high school and i love being with my friends...well that causes a lot of arguments with in the household..

Today we argued because i didnt come straight home from school and clean the house..instead i stayed out until 630! She said i wasnt responsible enough to do the things that needed to be done in the house before i went out..but i feel as though y should it matter when it gets done when its not going anywhere...but i dont say anything..

When my mama argues she gets dirty and her threats get violent..i try not to say anything because that just adds fuel to the fire..so i sit there and take it..i may shed a fear tears but im done with letting her get to me..she wants to have control over every aspect of my life and she wont allow me to make mistakes of my own because she feels i will make the same ones she did...

When we argued today she said something that made me break down and every time i replay it in my head i start crying all over again..she told me that i dont have patience for my lil sister and i need to start doing more with her...she said that i go through hell and high water with my friends but wont play a simple game with her...but the thing that got me was when she said and just like Brittany (my deceased older sister) if she were to be gone i would be hurt...that itself hurt me because she knows how hurt i am about my sisters death and for her to just throw it around like that hurt deep.....

My feelings right now are soo hard to explain..I just dont want to argue anymore..it gets me no where and it always ends the same...me crying alone behind the closed doors of my room...