It's Gettin Hard These Days

Let me startb off by lettin u kno who i am...im precia and im 17 years old..i have a lil sister and brother tht i claim and 2 more sisters tht idk....but anyway lets get to the rea; reason im writing this...when i was 2 i was in a car accident with my older sister, my mama, aunt and 3 cousins...my sister at the time was 4 and she died of cardiac arrest in the accident...so u could say i never really got the chance to know her but from the stories i hear we had a very deep connection at such a young age...well now its been 15 years since she died and i cant help but wonder wat things would be like if she were still here...her birthday is in a few days and for the past couple of years the whole month of december has been a hard month for me to handle not being able to be near or close to her the way i want to...i wrote a poem about her last year called my long lost best freind because i felt we wouldve been best friends is she were still here...but like people always tell me she's with me in my heart and i know she's smiling down on me from heaven but it doesnt really make it any easier to deal with...