Lost Thoughts

So Im just sitting here in my bed and Ihave all these random thoughts going on in my head..Let me elaborate::

Recently life for me has been crazy/entertaining....a lot of things have happened that no body really knows about..

A couple of weeks ago my friends and i made a pact to become celibate and stay celibate until I graduate in June 2010..long time huh? tell me about it!!! there is nothing like saying u not gone do something when its not being offered to u but as soon as u tell yourself u not gone do it offers come in from left to right and front to back...so had to fight the temptation we had to keep pushing the date back just so we wouldnt break the pact. lol funny shit...but now we have it under control for the most part and we have been doing good we are always with each other so we can count on each other to keep the others in line...

Coming to our beach experience! This was the first trip me and my girls went on out of town together and boy did we have fun and get away from all the bull city drama...which was desperately needed...The room to say the least was crowded and in all we had 21 kids with us....talk about a babysitting service...but oh no because I drove i refused to be in a room the whole time doing nothing....each day we stayed in the room till about 6 or 8...then we went out to the strip..went to the club...and on the last night chilled wit sum dudes we met who happened to stay in Fayetteville...but nothing serious with that just a good time outside the room chillin with people who didnt know us and who we didnt know...left a lot of room for conversation abd conferences lol....but that was about it at the beach..

We've been home for about 3 days now and i feel like i never left really..like nothing has changed since ive been gone..the problems i had to deal with before i left never got resolved and they were here waiting for me when i returned...sucks right??? but oh well my vacay was good while it lasted...now its time to face reality and see that now its time to get serious...i need to buckle down and find me that person i can be with and want to be with...

I keep thinkin that maybe if i stop lookin someone will find me but it seems that when i stop they do too lol...but naw i dont really put myself out there like that so the only ppl i seem to attract are my exes...and i hate back trackin...there is only ONE guy i would back track on and he knows who he is...so i really dont knopw what to do with that..i guess i could put myself out there more..but there are some ppl and things im just not ready to let go of yet...